Changes...

Well, something really unexpected happened to me this week... I got laid off from the job I've been at for almost the last 3 years. It really shook me up to say the least. I did not see that coming whatsoever. I've been trying to understand why it hurts me so much, and I think I've come to the conclusion that I love the people I worked with. They (well most of them...) were really like my extended family that I enjoyed seeing everyday that I came to work. That's what I'll miss so much. The lay off couldn't have come at a worse time... I've got a month left in the semester, so I am just going to try to hang out until the semester is over. Otherwise I will have to find a job that will work around that schedule for a month. Then this summer I hope to work for Sage and try to make up for the month of no work. And most importantly, it happened the day before my 24th birthday. Definitely a birthday I will NEVER forget... I just feel like I let Charley down. We were talking about trying to buy a house in town so we could be closer to work and everything else. I guess that was God's way of telling us that this is not the time! I know there is something so much better for me out there, but it's hard to move on after such a long time at that company. This is actually the second time I've been laid off by the same company, but this time I was there twice as long. I worked there for about 4 1/2 years altogether. I guess it's just time to move on... It's amazing how your life can change so quickly without warning. This morning as I was folding the laundry the song "irreplaceable" by Beyonce came on and I began to think about my old job. I know the song is about a breakup, but that's kind of how I feel about what happened to me. Anyway, this is the verse that expresses my feelings:

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable